Here I Am... Defenseless

An antonym for intimacy could be entitlement. It takes courage to ask for what you want and wait on what you need without flinching when it tarries and not thinking you deserve that it should come.

In hopeful expectation open yourself up to the bitter sweetness of being at a good Lord's mercy. 

And wait for it.

While you wait think of these things: He is love, He alone is good, He is light, He poured out His life blood for you on a cross and gave you breathe from His own lungs.

While you wait, trust He will arrive in the way and time that is right. Trust in His character and from that make your guess as to what is most likely to happen. 

No, you will not be disappointed- that wouldn't be like Him. 

To truly meet on His terms, humble yourself and wait. Don't try to preserve your feelings, pour them out. Don't try to protect yourself with distractions- tv, food, chores and to dos. The antonym for intimacy is giving up before you give in and not realizing just who it is that you have the chance to trust in.


And wait for it.

Habbakuk 2:3

though it tarries, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not delay.

"I'm Getting Closer"_ Lara Landon Blog and Music Video

There was a young girl proudly standing on the top of a mountain. She could see for miles in every direction- from where she had just come from and where she was headed. The sun was shining and her destination was only two more ridges beyond. She thought to herself "I've finally come to the top of this mountain and I have a vision of my destination! I can see it! Now if I just cross through two more valleys and two more mountain peaks I will be there!" 

She descended from the peak and into the first valley. Rushes of cold wind whipped through the rocks on either side. The lower she traveled the darker it grew. The sun now became completely blocked out. Sliding rocks and jagged drops frightened her and with each slip her confidence waned. 

The girl couldn't turn back but felt paralyzed by fear to move forward. Darkness covered the valley. She huddled between two big rocks and shivered as the night sounds tormented her. "Why didn't I stay on the mountain top? I don't think I can make it up this next ridge without falling. I'm scared Lord why did you have to put valleys of darkness, danger and difficulties between me and my destination?" she thought out loud.

A warm breeze enveloped the girl as she cried in the dark.  "I am with you, I will never leave you or forsake you. You can't see me but I've sent The Helper to you. He's been with you this whole way. He will be with you through this valley and the mountain tops until the end when you do see me." A beautiful voice replied. He continued "You thought when you could see what was before you on the mountain top that you were close to your destination, but I assure you that even here in the valley although it may not look it, you are closer to me than you ever have been before."

The girl began crying, pleading with the invisible voice "Lord, please just take me to my destination, fly me over these valleys and ridges. I'm weak. I'm afraid and I don't have what it takes to go through them!"

The kind voice answered "No, you are not as strong as you will be when this journey is over. This is what I meant by taking up your cross and following me. This is sharing in my suffering and it's the only way you will ever truly know me. You may feel rejection, humiliation and loneliness on this journey but do not despair. Remember, accepting this cross and following me is one in the same with taking my yoke upon you that is easy and light. You will feel the pain of the valleys, but you will also have the strength to scale these mountains. You will not fall. You will reach me and I will be your reward. Will you trust me and accept this difficult journey?" 

"Be it done to me as you say. I've tasted your love and it is worth this pain. If to know you I must go through valleys as well mountain tops, I will. I trust you." The girl replied. The warm wind was gone and the chill returned. The girls physical body shivered but her heart was aflame. The most beautiful voice of her Beloved spoke to her in the valley and it would sustain her until the next mountain peak when she could see her destination again.

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Remember when you are in a valley, you are closer to Him than you have ever been. Savor His love and promises that will sustain you in the dark times until your next "mountain top experience". And know the reward of becoming more and more acquainted with the love and provision of Jesus through the valleys is worth the cost of carrying your cross and following Him.

CLOSER lyrics by Lara Landon

"I'm getting closer, closer to you Lord

I haven't seen you

but I know I know you more

I keep on walking

still have miles to go

but as I look back on my long and narrow road

I'm getting… Closer"

Video Link: http://youtu.be/UwKw_dPEA9Q

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